Just finish work trial, and I m a little down. I know I m good and I can prove that I m good plus I m sure I can fulfills the requirements but when the boss just didn't treat me in a way that I deserve, I just can't help to feel that my self esteem is hurt n I can't do anything cos she got the money n she has the power.

stress

recently alot of stress which i really dunno where it come from... some from my friends around, my parents and work plus from myself as well. the feeling that everyone around me think that i m independent and strong enough to take all the hard work and pressure make me really down... y should i handle all the things, y not others? y should i pay for my brother's luxury stuff even though i'm working now? how about my bills? who will help me to pay it? y is me? y everyone thinks that i m rich? i've to save for my future studies, my trip and possibly my car so that i can return to my parents... y being the eldest in the family have to carry all the responsibilities? when my brothers will oso be more considerate and helping a little? i'm tired... sometime it's jz so tired to live... i'm really getting more and more unhappy

everything is not goin smoothly, i wonder am i goin to bad luck till the end of the yr? dunno y recently hav a feeling to please ppl around me... i dun do tis at all in the past, who do i care, as long as i din hurt anyone physically and mentally, i never care wat others think abt me... but y now is different? tis causing me more n more unhappy, i feel like i have lost myself...

helping hand

when i need some1, i will always only have myself... no one to count on. some ppl are lucky enough to always have a helping hand aside then where's mine? a relationship that not greet by ppl around, she probably thinks that i m playing wif this relationship but i'm serious to try to make it work out.. y not give everyone a chance? everyone only has themself, mayb is time to move out from surrounding friends