Reading back
the emails we had bring back a lot of memories. Since the last email and I never
get any reply from him, it has been always keeping me under suspense… I really
hate this kind of situation but this time I’m better, I think because he is not
my top 1 priority. No doubt he has this special corner in my heart but this
time it won’t affect my daily routine. It might linger around when I m not occupied
but I won’t be affected. Just that I would keep on wondering what happen to him,
is he hurt or worst dead? He should have just told me if he wanna end the
conversation but nope, he always does that, fade away silently….
Anyway, the
email threads remind me about the fun and passionate part of me and hence so
the intimacy btw me and JQ. Things have been slow between us, its like regular
routine and lack of sparks. But I think we are continue putting effort in. I m
trying to slim down and bring back the confidence, he is joining to get his
stamina back…
