It's been a while since my last post, not sure why it has to be today but at this moment I am emotional. It's JQ birthday and also YeKun & BiRu wedding day. Even though I tried to ignore , deny or whatsoever, but clock is still tickling and never stop, I clearly realised that I m getting old, friends are getting married and start a new chapter their own life and so does me (but somehow I just wish I can hang on to my current life longer). Yesterday, JQ and me went to the wedding expo and we bought a photos shooting package (same package as Howard & Xiu). They wasn't that happy or satisfy about the package probably cause they feel that they it is a bit over budget and they make the decision without thinking it straight. However, JQ and me thought it actually worth for the price and we kind of believe we are in good hand. We will be taking care nicely and personally. And it's the first time I feel good about wedding. I feel relieved mayb cause one of the major thing is ticked off, and mayb JQ is giving full support all the time, his brothers are excited, his parents just advise us be careful about the hidden cost. Mum said mayb cause Howard think it's over budget however I earn more than him and I always spend more generously. Well, mayb.... That's what it meant to be right? Use the money to buy happiness. Earn more and spend in a way you enjoy.
Mum asked me about how many tables JQ family is planning to have for wedding dinner, I told her mayb 100 tables, mayb 50/50. She straight away said dad and her aren't planning to have so many as they already are going to do 100 for Howard's hence mine can be lesser. I said let 2 parents talk about it. I wasn't happy for her attitude, I understand in Chinese tradition daughter and son always get different treat, but everytime when it happens, it just get me straight away... I should know better already but I just couldn't. That's reality.... I should just get back all my money from them and I can plan the wedding myself, have it the way I want. They can just attend and witness, no trouble for them. To be honest, I still can't feel the joy in them, and I don't think they care...
