I still missed her now and then, I don't know why, but the memories of her sometimes just pop up suddenly. Maybe because I never go through our stuff thoroughly, it feels like there is a lot of things was just left there, wasn't being packed. She is the only one that had all my patience and softness. I pat her to sleep, I made her dinner, I cleaned our house, I tried to make up her day.... I had put in a lot of effort. I start to compared the current relationship and the past, wondering how come I didn't do the same to JQ. Maybe cause I m the one being pampered all the time. Sometimes I tried to pamper JQ, but somehow I get angry easily, get worried because he is financial unstable. Relationship with ZK hardly involve financial planning, as we both worked hard and got good paid. JQ and me struggle a lot with financial, house, relationship with both families. 一个是单纯的爱情，另一个是充满了人间烟火的爱情。。。
