I wasn't plan to go there initially, and intentionally to avoid the place, but after i found out there is no other jap restaurant nearby and it's the most convenient choice, I decided to just call and grab a take away. Everything is fine till when I collecting my meals, the restaurant owner recognised me. He said " ohh, long time no see! You slimmer..." and he asked whether I m still with ZK. I don't wanna explain much and just wanna leave ASAP so i jz replied yes we still together... Momiji jap restaurant, it's the place we always went when we were first started. We went so frequently till the restaurant owner even remembered our favourite food, and at that time it was our sweetest moment of the 5 years. Winter, strong wind, she fetched me to grab dinner. I always had kitsune udon whereas she always had terriyaki chicken. After we moved to leederville then we stopped going there, from leederville we moved to south perth, its far away too, then we moved to victoria park, however, we hardly visited the place. The owner always remember us, disregard how long we haven't been there.
I cried staright after I got into the car. I couldn't hold for a second and my heart just felt so pain... I thought i never loved her deeply, but maybe cause I was too coward to face all the obstacles that waiting in the future for us and I know parents will be very dissapointed and disapproved, hence I hold back myself all the time. I never told her my worries, just hide all the emotion underneath and pretend nothing happened like I always do. At some point, I even cheated myself successfully that I didn't fall so badly. But this time when I return to this city that I love and somehow come across all the places we used to visit or recall sweet memories that we share, I have to admitted to myself, I wasn't that easier to let go as I thought. I asked WY and CL, how is she, they never say a word, maybe they are being told not to say anything to me.. I don't blame her... This place fill with my happiness and my sadness, I probably won't visit by my own anymore, I scared it will be like the situation I m having now again, overwhelmed with past memories.
I sent her a text asking whether she wanna meet up but as much as I know her, she wouldn't want to. At least I did ask.... and I have no regret now... ZK, sorry that we couldn't be together till the end...
