This is not the first time finding him not doing any housework... To him, even washing his own underwear is a chaos needless to say tidying or cleaning the house. He always left his stuff around the room for few days until I asked him to put it away or I did it. I had given him a lot chances, helping him to find excuses, but I'm really disappointed this time. I asked him to select some photos for the wedding video, he said jz take whatever in the facebook, which is only 24  photos. We have been together for 2 years and we only taken "24 photos" ?! yeah right! He complaint why is always him that need to do all these, i asked so what have you done, he replied washing clothes and cooking. He sounded like he washed all my clothes and folded them and putting them in my drawer, as well as he cook everyday, BUT what he really did, was just washing my underwear for few times and cook supper for me mayb 2 times per week. So whatever i have done doesn't count. How about tidying his stuff? Contacting wedding invitation card company? Contacting Musical band? Checking online the red packet ? Checking online stuff that needed for wedding? Do I really wanna married this person? Who does not do housework and thinking that he has done alot ? I m fair, if u can be the breadwinner for the family then you can the exemption for housework, but now is we pay the bill 50 by 50, so whats the reason for you not helping for daily routine stuff?

Annoyed, Disappointed and Doubt....

I still missed her now and then, I don't know why, but the memories of her sometimes just pop up suddenly. Maybe because I never go through our stuff thoroughly, it feels like there is a lot of things was just left there, wasn't being packed. She is the only one that had all my patience and softness. I pat her to sleep, I made her dinner, I cleaned our house, I tried to make up her day.... I had put in a lot of effort. I start to compared the current relationship and the past, wondering how come I didn't do the same to JQ. Maybe cause I m the one being pampered all the time. Sometimes I tried to pamper JQ, but somehow I get angry easily, get worried because he is financial unstable. Relationship with ZK hardly involve financial planning, as we both worked hard and got good paid. JQ and me struggle a lot with financial, house, relationship with both families. 一个是单纯的爱情，另一个是充满了人间烟火的爱情。。。 

Zk

It's been 1.5 years since I last met her, we haven't contact each other since broke up ... She still look the same but what have changed is we have nothing much to talk about and it's awkward to start a conversation. 5 years relationship but can't walk together till the end, however at least it leaves me all the good memories while the bad ones left behind. It wasn't the way I want her to know about my engagement news but sometimes maybe it's destiny to be that way..

Thanks for walking towards me and congrats me before you leave Rachel's wedding ceremony, your greeting touched me.  I m not sure whether you have let go but it really means a lot to me. Though I was pretty upset when I found out that you unfriend me at Facebook .. So we aren't friends anymore ? Or you just not ready yet ? Hey, I still wanna stay in touch with you no matter how hard it will be , jz let me know whenever you are ready ...