Devil's box

I was driving home after work then i heard this song from my ipod -- " 漂洋过海来看你 " , suddenly reminded me about my past relationship and the feelings caught me. It reminded me how sad I was and how pain it was to love ZiSan, and also the time with ZK. They said in order to forget someone you loved, you gonna start a new relationship and happily after. I am in a happy and progressive relationship now, however, this kind of sad feelings somehow just catch me unexpectedly. Somehow, I wish JiQi is here beside me now, then I can hug him tight and snug in his arms, left the loneliness away.

是在缅怀从前喜欢一个人的心情，对怜惜自己从前的付出和被伤害的难受，还是对已失去的旧情念念不忘？想起从前有种心酸酸的感觉。很清楚不再喜欢 ZiSan 了，可是能联想到旧情的歌曲都会触动我的心，尤其是夜深人静时。这样的感觉会不会有一天消失？我觉得现实中往往已经物是人非，但是我却仍旧记得旧时他的样貌和性格。。。

JiQi thought that I don't love him that much, I don't think it's true, just that I don't want myself to be too rely on him and my emotions will be affected by him all the time. Too torturing for an old soul....

Hey, I miss you, miss everything about you...