Devil's box

Recently, end of September, a surprise guest showed up at my working place and we got to sit down and have lunch together. He said I am getting slimmer than the last time he met me and he joked and said did my dad starved me. I asked him did he joked this way with all his exes? He said No, cause he is not close them anymore. We sat in a Japanese restaurant and ordered some food to share. We chatted about our work, future plans, about his holiday to Japan. He asked me about my love life, and I told him that someone ask me to commit and to love him back. I said he seems like asking for something that I no longer have. I asked " What is love? How do I know whether I love someone? " He replied Baidu have all answers about it, such a silly reply. I said you will know right if you truly love a person... I talked about I couldn't love anymore as I am getting older and older and people hardly able to fall in love anymore. It was a nice lunch and nice catch up, I can see he is changing to be a better person. Maybe its a shame to let him go but I am not regret as I have always wanted someone that has strong body that will be able to lift me up. 

When I came home, a thought lingering in my mind. How does it feel like to see someone that you used to love deeply talking about her love life and the main character in the story is not you? If he really as he said I am the only girl that he loves and ever loves, I wonder how would it feel like when we talk about my love story?