Devil's box

Today is my off day, quite reluctant to think about you and our relationship (past). I really need to write it all out, to have an ending for all the past, to express how i feel even though no one cares. I told wei leng about the rejection i received from you. She asked me whether i am alright, how did you said it, did you initiate the conversation, she said she just curious... how does she think i will feel? does the process matter? what does it to do with her? I don't feel like talking about it at all. i just wanna run away, pretending that all this doesn't exist, just using my another personalities to continue my life even though deep down my heart, i know eventually i will have to accept the fact. I wonder my wounded heart ever heal in the future, wonder whether i will make a promise to others like i ever make to you.