The thought of you being with her now, happily celebrating her birthday burn me... Remind about our past that we never celebrate each other birthday in a good way. We were either sneaking out or finding some place to be alone, just never feel secure and relax. I can't help but keep thinking may be you should just reject me and let the past be the past, let all the memories be buried in grave. The other side of me keep persuading that I should try harder and give our relationship a chance. But it's just not gonna be the same anymore right? I can't really recall those good memories, it's doesn't seem to be we had a lot in the past. I know I was being pampered when I was with you but all the happiness came along with some bitterness too. And now, I just feel the pain... I should have just left, let our path lead us to a separate way. I should have just pack up all the memories about you, clean out your space in my heart and close the door leading towards you, so that I can start a new relationship with someone else, not just keep on going back to you when my heart is weak. Our relationship last for 7 years, and after 5 years, I thought I have let it go and so does everyone but in fact, you are still severely affecting my emotion. I bet no one realise that I m actually still struggling, not something I expected from myself too. Sometimes, human just have to repeatedly telling yourself about something then eventually you can cheat everyone including yourself. When I see a relationship ends badly, I told myself not to make the same mistake as others do but in fact, I break all my own rules when it comes to you.
Will you let me walk away?
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